we made a baby.

Ok. So something we did worked. Not sure if it was the diet, the exercise, or the prayer. But we are now 5 1/2 weeks pregnant. I am still overly worried about every little thing. Mostly. Because of all the odds with me having pcos. We took three different hcg level tests over a week and they went from 29 to 61 to 148. That was every two days. So they were doing what they were suppose to do. And so I calmed down a little. Then I got a little cramping that felt like I was about to start and got worried, but easy told this is normal. I'm on crinone for my low progestragin levels.I go for my first real Dr.'s appointment on the 13th. I can't wait. I'm so excited. Hoping anyone who has been trying for as long as we have will have a renewed faith from my story. If you have any questions as to what I did. Please feel free to ask. And baby dust for all.

At a stand still.

O.K., So for the past few weeks I fill like I'm at a stand still with my weight loss. I haven't changed anything. Been taking in the same 1350 calories a day. Working out. Just not losing weight. My personal trainer said I may be gaining muscle and losing fat. My clothes are fitting a little better. I'll no in a couple days when we do our weigh in and measurements.

We tried getting prego the unconventional way last month. It didn't happen. For the next couple months we are just going to try the old fashioned way and work on getting in better shape. Hopefully something we try works.

The waiting game.

Hi, I'm 36 with PCOS. A bad combo. Finally after trying for 8 years we have decided to try fertility treatments. I have to wait till Monday to see if everything worked.

The hardest part for me is all the waiting. You can't help but get your hopes up and then the let down. I have to wait to start my period that I don't get thanks to PCOS. Then have to take meds to get it to start. Then have to wait to see if my folical is getting bigger. Then the worst one next to waiting for prego test. Waiting for ovulation. I about went out of my mind because you have such a short window. This didn't happen either again thanks to my PCOS. So I have to take a hgc shot to make it happen. And now waiting till Monday, two weeks to take prego test. About those it yall.

My little scare.

Ok. So I was working out really hard last night with my personal trainer and I felt a pinch that was painful just above my pelvic bone. I went to the bathroom and there was a little blood. Now the Dr. Told me it would be fine to keep up with my diet and workout routine till I found out if I was pregnant on Monday. So I called today and they told me I most likely didn't cause anything to happen. That it could be a side effect of the crinone I'm having to take. I just want Monday to get here already. I would take a prego test early but due to the hgc shot it could give me a false positive before Monday. So, I just have to wait and hope and pray and beg.

Baby or not a baby? That is the question.

So a whole lot has happened since I last posted. As you know I am super honest so if you don't want to know everything you may not want to read on. We didn't make it on The Biggest Loser. Not that it stopped us from losing about 25lbs each in the past 2 months. We changed our whole diet and hired a personal trainer.

During this process we decided to do the next step in trying to have a baby. Fertility treatments. So we saw a Dr. He gave me stuff to start my period because who knows how long it would have taken on It's own. Love my PCOS. Then went on a round of clomafine. Meanwhile using my clear blue easy fertility monitor so I would be ready for ovulation. Nothing that new yet. But then I had to go in for ultrasounds where they shove that huge stick up in you to see if I had a folical getting bigger. First time I went he didn't even hardly say hi before he thrust that thing in me. Was not fun and had a talk with him afterwards. Was much nicer after that but still not fun. Oh and did I mention the first time he checked there was nothing. I cried the whole way home. Second time he checked there was one. Just one. I cried the whole way home. Then the hard part came waiting for ovulation witch did not happen and I had to have the hgc shot to trigger it. Oh yeah and this was to be done at home by my husband with no supervision. He had to mix two things together and give me the shot in my butt. I askes him a million times are you sure you can you do this, knowing he had never given a shot before. He reassured me he could. So he got everything ready and tried to do it. Was going slow and painful and didn't even break the skin. Got scared I was going to move or that he was going to break the needle and stopped. Went and got our neighbour who had studied to be a nurse. Thankfully she was awesome and got it done without me even feeling it. I still can't believe we were ment to do that on our own with no training. Crazy. Ok so now the real fun part. Hubby had to go in the next day and do his part. Then I waited while they got it ready for me. Finally went in and had to be pried open I think more so then when you get a pap smear if you ask me. And then the fun pinch of the needle. After that I had to lay on the table and do the little baby prayer for what was an eternity. Finally got to go home. Of course had tons of normal activity over the next couple days. Just in case. And now I'm on my third day of what seams like forever waiting the two weeks until we know if it happened for us. Meanwhile I just started crinone gel that has a ton of side effects. One of witch is so gross that if you want to know I'll let you look it up. Again something I can thank my PCOS for. So wish us luck. We should know in about a week and a half.

No baby ''YET".

So if you know me you know two things for sure. I am super honest and I want a baby more than I want to breath. Me and my husband have been trying almost anything we could afford to have one for the past 8 years. I was told I have PCOS about 6 years ago, but not really told a lot about. But they didn't really know a lot about it. I recently decided that losing weight would be the next logical step in the let's make a baby roller coaster. We first tried to get on the biggest loser and all though there is still a chance we could get a call back it most likely won't happen. So we are going it on our own. It will be hard but starting April 1st we will be in full biggest loser swing. And so to prepare I have looked up diets for getting pregnant and for pcos. Surprisingly pretty close. Also I will be taking vitamins and herbs to help in the process. Hoping that between all of the above and my sheer will power we can make the baby thing happen once and for all. Any help or advice you might have will be welcomed. I am on an all low glycemic index diet. Treadmill every day. And taking wild yam, red clover, and chasteberry. Plus vitamins b6, b12, flaxseed, fish oil, probiotics, and trying to decide if I should take the meds the Dr. prescribed for high trigycerides and cholesterol. Hoping this will have a happy ending. If you have something natural that has worked for you please let me know. Thank you.