Missing you even more. Due date would have been....

It is only days till the day I would have met you. Thoughts and tears I thought were going are back and even stronger then before. I miss you every day. I'm not sure how to handle the pain I feel inside. It has been so long I feel most have forgotten about you. I will never forget. My heart aches. I wish I could have held you for even a moment. Time has moved so fast yet it still feels like yesterday I found out that you existed. The best moment of my life. filled with joy and fear. I wish I had longer with you. To feel you grown inside me. To name you. I still wonder if I should. Would it be ok. Would it make the loss even harder. You are my angel baby. I love you and I will weep for you till the day I can meet you. Your mommy loves you.

Missing you even more. Due date would have been....

It is only days till the day I would have met you. Thought and tears I thought were going are back and even stronger then before. I miss you every day. I'm not sure how to handle the pain I feel inside. It has been so long I feel most have forgotten about you. I will never forget. My heart aches. I wish I could have held you and loved you. Time has moved so fast yet it still feels like yesterday I found out that you existed. The best moment of my life. filled with joy and fear. I wish I had longer with you. To feel you grown inside me. To name you. I still wonder if I should. Would it be ok. Would it make the loss even harder. You are my angel baby. I love you and I will weep for you till the day I can meet you. Your mommy loves you.

Anyone with PCOS trying to get pregnant.

Hi, I am 36 years old and I have PCOS. I have been married and trying to get pregnant for almost nine years.
We recently were able to get pregnant for the first time after having both lost 35 lbs each on a special diet. The loss of this pregnancy sent me back to old habits and I have gained 6 lbs back. We have had no luck in the past few months since we were ready to try again. I keep thinking if I could only get it together and diet again that I could have another chance. I am almost 37 and can't help but think I don't have much time left. The only other thing that we did during the time before we got pregnant was try fertility treatments the month before witch did not work. We got pregnant the month after. We have been going through hardships lately and can't afford the treatment again right now. Too much money. I have heard of people doing fundraising to get fertility treatments and even adopt. I was wondering if anyone has done this or known someone who has done this. Me and my husband are parents without a child and it has been hard on us and our family who see that we would be such caring and wonderful parents. Any information that you could share would be wonderful.

Here is the video I took of when we found out we were pregnant before. I miss my angel baby so much. Please help if you have any info.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kE51dqWjoU4

Honest: In a state of happiness.

Honest: In a state of happiness.: Ok. It has been a while since I last posted on here. We are still trying to get pregnant and just recently had disappointment with that aga...

In a state of happiness.

Ok. It has been a while since I last posted on here. We are still trying to get pregnant and just recently had disappointment with that again. we are still a little behind on bills and such because of a recent job loss. But, I have great hope for the near future and so this is my state of happiness I talk of. I have a great job now making more then I made at my old job. I work with wonderful people who like to have fun and live life to it's fullest. This inspires me to do so again as well. We have decided that one way or another we will have a family. So, we have stopped using credit cards and slowly started to pay them off even with the lack of funds recently. It made not using credit cards very hard but we did it. And we have started saving jars for what is important to us. #1 and the biggest being a baby. We will save up for either another treatment or adoption. But, like I said we will have a family. The hardest of our goals will be to get back on track with our diet. I know it it crazy but it really is cheaper to eat bad food. When we were eating good we were eating organic if this helps with what I am saying. But when we were eating good and organic for those three months, It was the first time I ever got pregnant. It was the best and worst experience of my life. I thought it would never happen. To have felt that joy even for a little bit of time was amazing. It was also the saddest loss of my life. I wish no one ever had to feel that way ever again. So, It tok a while for us to want to try again. For the past few months we have been and have had not luck thus far. So, It was a little sad but we are still working on getting our selves ready. By get our money, minds and bodies in shape. I guess that is it for now. I hope to be on here more often again. It really is good mental therapy. Thank you for listening.