In a state of happiness.

Ok. It has been a while since I last posted on here. We are still trying to get pregnant and just recently had disappointment with that again. we are still a little behind on bills and such because of a recent job loss. But, I have great hope for the near future and so this is my state of happiness I talk of. I have a great job now making more then I made at my old job. I work with wonderful people who like to have fun and live life to it's fullest. This inspires me to do so again as well. We have decided that one way or another we will have a family. So, we have stopped using credit cards and slowly started to pay them off even with the lack of funds recently. It made not using credit cards very hard but we did it. And we have started saving jars for what is important to us. #1 and the biggest being a baby. We will save up for either another treatment or adoption. But, like I said we will have a family. The hardest of our goals will be to get back on track with our diet. I know it it crazy but it really is cheaper to eat bad food. When we were eating good we were eating organic if this helps with what I am saying. But when we were eating good and organic for those three months, It was the first time I ever got pregnant. It was the best and worst experience of my life. I thought it would never happen. To have felt that joy even for a little bit of time was amazing. It was also the saddest loss of my life. I wish no one ever had to feel that way ever again. So, It tok a while for us to want to try again. For the past few months we have been and have had not luck thus far. So, It was a little sad but we are still working on getting our selves ready. By get our money, minds and bodies in shape. I guess that is it for now. I hope to be on here more often again. It really is good mental therapy. Thank you for listening.